to the day i didnt realize that i was opening a new chapter,
to the day when i cried because i missed home and mama so much,
to the day i saw people were in hysteria for the first time, in real life not in movie,
to the day i fought with my classmates, my sibling,
to the day i cried like mad because my beloved sisters left us,
to the day i tried to fit myself with a new family,
to the day i laughed and loved a lot,
to the day i became something i wouldnt believe i'll be doing it, and i did.
to the day we became one, and shouted out our right, and failed,
to the day i got a new family again,
to the day i became mexican,
to the day i broke my own promise, not to cry about boy,
to the day we almost cried because we were too afraid to answer the papers of our life,
to the day we ended it with sujood syukur,
to the day we said our last goodbyes to each other.
And, to the day,
when all of us received an offer, for our new chapter,
made me realized that my chapters had ended.
I havent start my new chapter yet, my friends did.
and i am hoping to re-write the chapters that i just finished,
i wish i can.
we all wish we can.
but life, must move on.
I dont know, if you are reading this,
but if you do,
i wish you goodluck,
make a great journey.
Our new chapter, begin.
Can I be selfish? Can I not care about anyone else except for me? Can I not cry about others people? It is that bad to be selfish?
Im tired and sick of helping people who dont really appreciate me, taking care other people heart instead of my own heart.
I have things to chase too. I cant sit back with people who does not even want to work for themselve. I work hard and help them but they dont and always ask others people help.
Should I call that selfish? No. Because its make them look bad. What if I ignore that people, the society will say Im selfish and "nak berjaya sorang2"
Sorry man. Work hard for yourself and then I will help you. Dah besar, boleh fikir mana baik mana buruk, know what you should do and what should you not do.
You are not six years old kid who need people to ask you to do ABC exercise.
Call me heartless. Call me selfish. I dont mind. I am sick of people who dont work hard for themselves and keep asking people and blame god why they didnt get what they want.
Today js 17th March and I feel like I want to write something.
Suck. I dislike earlier 2016 because too much stress especially in college. Just as you know Im 17 years old, form 5 and Im gonna take SPM this November which I should realize that and studying hard af but sadly i dont have the kesedaran yet.
I spent my first day mid sem holiday went to Ikea with my mom and sister. And niece. 2nd and 3th day i slept, A LOT. didnt touch my homework. I did touch math but then I got distracted with kdramas "Marriage, not Dating" , really recommend you guys to watch that drama its hilarious.
Anyway its been really rough February and ealier in March. Homework, LDPs, UNGA, didnt get the chance to have 5 days PB because I had to be a helper for Perkhemahan Kor Kadet Polis.
I stressed too much so I spent my mid sem holiday releasing my stress, didnt think at all about those bundle and bundle of homework.
But I do have fun during Activity Week. Since its gonna be the last Activity Week that we will enjoy. So yeay.
So how far is my 2016 life ?